It seems to me you are somewhat childish and imature, you say you do not want to tell your husband you cheated 2 weeks after you marry him, and then want to get reinstated and leave, and then you want to complain and cry about how much you want to be a witness again, and go to the asembly.
You dont know what you want, figure that out first, then work on your religion, you are a child, grow up, and get a life.
sound harsh, but its just the truth, not good or bad.
big d